Alone

Mood: not happy nor sad

Music: Impulsive by MYMP

A simple word with a simple meaning "ALONE = SOLITUDE"

Being alone is not so bad. It helps me think regarding my next move.

I don't know if I should be serious with my life right now.

But maybe I should, especially now that I will be getting married.

Being serious in life gives me shivers, but I know it's for my own good.

I'm scared with what my life might happen after the wedding.

How married life goes?

Questions came puring in my thoughts when I hear the word marriage.

Will I be a good wife?

Will I have kids soon?

Will I be a good mother?

What will happen when we have kids?

All those questions left unanswered until I'm married.

All this things I kept on thinking just because I am alone for 4 hours.

What will my thoughts be if I'm alone for the whole day?

But you know what?

Even if I'm kind of scared, I am still relaxed because I know my better half will help all the way.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

We might move it

Just like the title says we might move the wedding date to Oct. 16, 2010 to Sept. 10, 2011. Yes that's right. 2011 not Sept. 10, 2010 but 2011. WHY? Because still with the same reason. NO MONEY for everything. How can we move on to the next step in our relationship without money. I suggested to have a civil wedding but Luke doesn't want to. So there will be just 3 options:

Option 1: Loan... mangutang ng mangutang hanggang sa mabaon na kahit kasal na nagbabayad pa din ng utang.

Option 2: Move the date to later next year para makaipon muna kahit papano and wait for his formal proposal with e-ring.

Option 3: No wedding at all.

I can't cry anymore. I'm so tired of thinking and crying and doing everything. why did I put myself into this mess? Dapat talaga sa umpisa pa lang hindi na ko pumayag na magpakasal sa kanya lalao na wala siyang ipon, proposal at singsing... :(


(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

tell me how

so tell me
how can we pull this off
when we don't have a dime to spend
for this special day?
we can't pay with tears, smile, or by pleading.
i don't want to lose hope
but what else can i do?
i just need to pray harder
and hope for the best
need to think positive
and wish for the rest.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

So so sad

Everytime I see someone or hear someone say that they will get married I feel so so so SAD...









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the saddest thing

I think the wedding is off.

WHY?

Because we don't have any money to pursue it.
we don't have any money to have even a simple wedding.

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desperate

I just heard myself talk and I sounded so "desperate"...

I didn't even see it coming. I thought everything is good. I keep on planning for our future and I haven't even notice that "he" haven't said anything at all. Meaning what?

He doesn't want to have a future with me?

I am such a dummy I'm so ashamed of myself, I was the one who proposed, I was the one who's looking for a house, I was the one who keeps registering for wedding expo, I was the one who decided to have a civil wedding this year.

I'm so stupid
Pathetic
Dumb
DESPERATE

I'm so sorry for this. I'm so sorry for that. I'm so sorry for being so desperate. I'm sorry.

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Proposal

Is it really unromantic if he didn't properly propose to me and we are planning to get married soon but I don't even have an ENGAGEMENT RING yet? We've been together for 8 years and we think the ONLY next step in our relationship is MARRIAGE. That is why we plan to tie the knot soon. But seriously is it really unromantic? Or it's just who we (the couple) are? I know I'm still longing for that perfect proposal.

NO dinner dates
NO movies
NO kneeling

Just that perfect stroll along wherever wait for the sun to shine upon us a perfect speech with bunch of tulips then pop the question. (NO KNEELING FOR CRYING OUT LOUD )

It's just who we (THE COUPLE) are.

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Its Time

It's what every girl inthe world dreams of. When they will get married, but of course for me it's not yet a church wedding but still its still a wedding right?

And of course...

I CAN' WAIT!!!!!!

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I Love

The most beautiful engagement ring I would ever want to have. A heart shaped genuine blue topaz stone radiates from the center of a stylish bali beaded border in this beautiful ring.

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Married

Guess what?!

Soon I'll Say I Do

It's not that complicated because it's been 8 yrs that Luke and I have been steady. So finally I'll walk down the alter with him waiting for me and we'll both say "I DO"

I'm excited.


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