Hello 2011

Mood: Confused

Again with the confused mood? Why you ask? Because I dreamed about Nathan last night. It just happened. I'm not thinking about him or anything it just did. So here's the dream, it's short but the weirdest of all.

I think I was grilling something outside a house (i don't know who's house it is) i have my back on a wall and people are on the other side of that wall. Then Lindsay (his gf) walked by followed by Nathan. When Lindsay is out of sight, Nathan came back to me hug me and kissed me on the lips. It is so weird because there's this feeling that we both wanted to kiss each other more but then we might be caught by our bf or gf.

Then I woke up.

So many questions:

> why did I dream of him?

> what is the dream about?

> am i missing something?

> am i just being paranoid over this?

I need to google this dream.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Alone

Mood: not happy nor sad

Music: Impulsive by MYMP

A simple word with a simple meaning "ALONE = SOLITUDE"

Being alone is not so bad. It helps me think regarding my next move.

I don't know if I should be serious with my life right now.

But maybe I should, especially now that I will be getting married.

Being serious in life gives me shivers, but I know it's for my own good.

I'm scared with what my life might happen after the wedding.

How married life goes?

Questions came puring in my thoughts when I hear the word marriage.

Will I be a good wife?

Will I have kids soon?

Will I be a good mother?

What will happen when we have kids?

All those questions left unanswered until I'm married.

All this things I kept on thinking just because I am alone for 4 hours.

What will my thoughts be if I'm alone for the whole day?

But you know what?

Even if I'm kind of scared, I am still relaxed because I know my better half will help all the way.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

Politics can ruin your work

I hate politics. Specially politics that you discuss in work. For example: Your boss is a loyalist of Gibo. How about your employees? What if they are for Villar, Aquino, Estrada or Gordon. They can't even think for themselves because you "the boss" is a Gibo loyalist. They can't say anything that they don't like Gibo because they are scared. They can't do anything because they might hear or be discriminated if they say who they really want to vote.

Now you tell me that "never ever discuss politics, sex and religion with your friends because you have a different point of view" but you give away and keep on campaigning a certain politician at your office, you give away ballers, t-shirts and stickers. How is that not discussing anything?

What if me, as your employee, is a Aquino loyalist? But you as my boss is a Gibo loyalist. Then you discuss in my face all the wrong doings of Aquino and of course no mistakes with Gibo. How is that fair?

What if I got mad at you because Aquino help me a lot that you don't even know and I shoved it in your face my boss about all the wrong doings of Gibo. Of course I'll get fired but you will just say that you fire me because I shouted at you and did not respect you. But the real reason is that because I didn't agree with you.

Even if you did not tell your employees to be a loyalist of a certain politician but do you think they can say something about it? Of course not.

Think it through, not all of your employees has the same mindset as you. And how dare you say that your friends are blinded on what they believed in.

Shame on you my boss.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

The time has come

Ayun na nga akala ko kasi okay lang sakin na walang e-ring hindi ko pala kakayanin. Lalo na nung nakita ko yung cousin ko na may e-ring na. Parang nasa isip ko.

"Buti pa siya may singsing kahit next year pa ang kasal... :("

masakit malungkot

Ano ba to?!?! :(

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Kailan

Kailan mo kaya malalaman?
Ang nasa isip at puso ko
Kailangan pa bang sabihin?
Hindi ba dapat ikaw ang magkusang magbigay sa akin Nasasaktan na ako
Umiiyak sa tuwing naaalala ko
Nangangarap kung kailan magkakaron
Para mapatunayan na totoo
Alam kong medyo mabigat
Ngunit iyon ay nararapat
Ako'y may karapatang magkaron
Sana maisip mo
Bago pa dumating ang Oktubre
Ang sakit sakit
Lagi na lang naiinggit
Lagi na algn umiiyak sa tuwing naiisip
O Kailan?

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Fever / Lurker

Okay okay. I have a new story to tell.

I have this long long long time crush. How long? I'm talking about 4th grade long and I'm 24 now so do the math. One time, years ago, he added me on Friendster. Oh he is soooooo FINE... I can't stop looking at his profile and pictures. Then eventually I stopped lurking. Then a month ago he added me on Facebook as well. Here comes the lurking.

My issue? I keep on lurking at his pictures and thinking.

"What would it be like to kiss those lips?"

Is it that bad? My situation? I just want to see him again and talk to him but not like before. Because before I babble all the time because I'm nervous in front of him.

Oh my. I need a break on this Facebook Fever. Is it really just a Facebook Fever or is it something worse?

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Proposal

Is it really unromantic if he didn't properly propose to me and we are planning to get married soon but I don't even have an ENGAGEMENT RING yet? We've been together for 8 years and we think the ONLY next step in our relationship is MARRIAGE. That is why we plan to tie the knot soon. But seriously is it really unromantic? Or it's just who we (the couple) are? I know I'm still longing for that perfect proposal.

NO dinner dates
NO movies
NO kneeling

Just that perfect stroll along wherever wait for the sun to shine upon us a perfect speech with bunch of tulips then pop the question. (NO KNEELING FOR CRYING OUT LOUD )

It's just who we (THE COUPLE) are.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)