a NOT GOOD tuesday morning

It is official. There will be no more wedding happening this year. :(
It makes me cry thinking about it. But then again it will be better off than thinking were will we get the money to pay for our suppliers.
I thought I want to get married. But NO,

I just want the thought of preparing for a wedding.


(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

Kailan

Kailan mo kaya malalaman?
Ang nasa isip at puso ko
Kailangan pa bang sabihin?
Hindi ba dapat ikaw ang magkusang magbigay sa akin Nasasaktan na ako
Umiiyak sa tuwing naaalala ko
Nangangarap kung kailan magkakaron
Para mapatunayan na totoo
Alam kong medyo mabigat
Ngunit iyon ay nararapat
Ako'y may karapatang magkaron
Sana maisip mo
Bago pa dumating ang Oktubre
Ang sakit sakit
Lagi na lang naiinggit
Lagi na algn umiiyak sa tuwing naiisip
O Kailan?

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Fever / Lurker

Okay okay. I have a new story to tell.

I have this long long long time crush. How long? I'm talking about 4th grade long and I'm 24 now so do the math. One time, years ago, he added me on Friendster. Oh he is soooooo FINE... I can't stop looking at his profile and pictures. Then eventually I stopped lurking. Then a month ago he added me on Facebook as well. Here comes the lurking.

My issue? I keep on lurking at his pictures and thinking.

"What would it be like to kiss those lips?"

Is it that bad? My situation? I just want to see him again and talk to him but not like before. Because before I babble all the time because I'm nervous in front of him.

Oh my. I need a break on this Facebook Fever. Is it really just a Facebook Fever or is it something worse?

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

desperate

I just heard myself talk and I sounded so "desperate"...

I didn't even see it coming. I thought everything is good. I keep on planning for our future and I haven't even notice that "he" haven't said anything at all. Meaning what?

He doesn't want to have a future with me?

I am such a dummy I'm so ashamed of myself, I was the one who proposed, I was the one who's looking for a house, I was the one who keeps registering for wedding expo, I was the one who decided to have a civil wedding this year.

I'm so stupid
Pathetic
Dumb
DESPERATE

I'm so sorry for this. I'm so sorry for that. I'm so sorry for being so desperate. I'm sorry.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)