I didn't expect it

Date: March 19, 2010 (Friday)

Haaayyyyy.... Bakit ba ganito? Ako pa ngayon ang nagtuturo sa kanya kung anong maganda at murang engagement ring. In short NAGPAPARAMDAM ako na gusto ko ng singsing. Kasi naman sino ba namang lalaking may mahal na magpropopose sa gusto niyang pakasalan ng walang engagement ring? :( Akala ko talaga bibilin na niya yung singsing para sakin. Akala ko sosorpresahin niya ako nung nagpunta kami sa baguio ng tatlong araw... :( Ang sakit ang lungkot. Dapat talaga hindi ako pumayag nung nag propose siya sa akin ng walang singsing. :(

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

Kailan

Kailan mo kaya malalaman?
Ang nasa isip at puso ko
Kailangan pa bang sabihin?
Hindi ba dapat ikaw ang magkusang magbigay sa akin Nasasaktan na ako
Umiiyak sa tuwing naaalala ko
Nangangarap kung kailan magkakaron
Para mapatunayan na totoo
Alam kong medyo mabigat
Ngunit iyon ay nararapat
Ako'y may karapatang magkaron
Sana maisip mo
Bago pa dumating ang Oktubre
Ang sakit sakit
Lagi na lang naiinggit
Lagi na algn umiiyak sa tuwing naiisip
O Kailan?

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

the saddest thing

I think the wedding is off.

WHY?

Because we don't have any money to pursue it.
we don't have any money to have even a simple wedding.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

so and so

i thought everything might change a little this year

i thought wrong

nothing will ever gonna change

i'm the only one who will change in this family


A NEW YEAR BUT NOT "A NEW YOU"

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Because of Just one weekend

I'm having issues with Luke's dad and brother again (well most of it is on his dad), and it's hurting Luke. I'm not doing anything wrong, I'm just thinking of Luke. Here's the situation: Luke stays with me during the weekdays because my house is closer to his office. Now sometimes I plan a trip for us and it always fall on weekends because that's the only time we have a time off. Now he's dad and brother is upset because they just want to be with Luke and I understand that. The only thing I don't understand is they are upset not because of that but also because Luke is the only one helping his dad every weekend in cleaning everything in their house, his brother is upset because he's the one doing the chores instead of Luke. Now I'm upset because that's their intention. I told Luke that maybe he should stay with his family for now just until every one cooled off. Then he could stay with me during the weekends. He doesn't want to because he might not be able to leave during the weekend and that would be another issue.

I don't know what to do anymore.

I want to help but I can't It's all up to Luke now.

I'm just here whenever, whatever.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

2 Christmases Left For Me

I just realized

that I only have
2 more Christmases left
to celebrate
with my family as a
single lady.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

IELTS Results

So he passed his Exams

Does this mean he's going away?

hmmmm.....
so sad....
I don't know how to react....

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Just that

Just when I thought nothing could go wrong

everything will fall into

pieces.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Missing You Dearly

Is it worth missing a friend

even if you know

that he will not

miss you

the way you

miss him?

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Well why would it be?

Date: April 9, 2008 (Wednesday)
Mood: Frustrated
Music: No Air by Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown


Well guys it didn’t happen. Of course it wouldn’t. Who am I kidding?
Well I’m a little bit disappointed that our movie night didn't come alive because I am really looking forward to it. I haven’t seen Nate for months. Well here’s what happened…

Text Message

11 am
Hermoine: Nate what’s the plan?

12nn… 1pm…. 2pm…. My God the Interval

3 pm
Nate: Is it still showing on Saturday? Coz Jake wants to meet up on sat.
Hermoine: I don’t know.
What’s new Nate?! I knew this will happen.

4pm… 5 pm… Still with the Interval

5:30 pm
Nate: Sorry Hermoine. I promise on Saturday. If your free.
Hermoine: I don’t know Nate. I don’t want to be rejected no more.

DONE…

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Another one of those IM's

Date: Feb. 26, 2008 (Tuesday)

Mood: Excited

Music: Almost

Just read through it… It’s just the sweetest first IM’s…

Nathan: aba?! galing ha!
hehe!
ka im ko rin jake ngyon e
tpos bnuksan ko pa frendster n mutliply nya
Hermoine: conference kmi nila jake & jimmy
bkit?
Nathan: ahh..
gusto ko mkita account mo
namimis ko na "IT GURL" e (aaawwwwww... sweetness)
Hermoine:hehehe...
tignan mo...
ok lng naman sakin e...
Nathan:hehe!
oo nga pero wala naman account e
hahaha!
Hermoine: wala?

This is it!!!!!

Nathan: actually gusto ko mamit in person c "IT GURL"
Hermoine: tlaga bkit?
Nathan: wala lang..
mis ko na sya..
Hermoine: ahh...
cge pagnakita ko sya sabhin ko miss mo na sya...
Nathan: cge b! suplada na kc ngyon un e..
Hermoine:tlaga?!
ang sab nya sakin kaw daw ang suplado e...
Nathan: oo naman! tagal na!
parang d naman nya ko kilala
Hermoine: parang d nga ata e... (arte arte)
Nathan: asus!

Random IM's

Hermoine: Nathan: actually gusto ko mamit in person c"ITGURL"... arte mo Nate ha?!
Nathan: ako pa ngyon nagiinarte!?
kaw ayaw mkipagkita e
Hermoine: HUUUWWAAAATTTTTT???????
ako?
ayaw makipagkita?
Nathan: sabe ko jan ako lage dmadaan ako sa area mo e
kelangan b muna magfile nag approval k Luke?
Hermoine: cra...
e bkit naman kac makikipagkita ka sakin dto pa sa office...
Nathan: bkit naman hinde?!
Hermoine: ilang beses na kitang niyaya laging ayaw...
Nate short hair na ko ulit...
Nathan: tlga?! how short?!
Hermoine: tignan mo sa friendster...
Nathan: short hair na b un sa pic mo sa im?
Hermoine: yup...
Nathan: hmm.. nkita ko na nga knina pero i didn't mind kala ko kc natakpan lang or sumtin pero bgay naman sayo (hindi nya napansin pero sabi nya bagay sakin noh?!)
Hermoine: lumaki muhka ko...
Nathan: d ko napansin kc close up pic mo e
Hermoine: hihi...

I don't like this part... :(

Hermoine: pag ako nagyayang umalis makikipagkita ka ba?!
Nathan: ok lang bsta d macconflict sa sked ko
Hermoine: tuwing kailan ka ba pwede?
Nathan: 7days a week nako pmpasok lam mo naman un (sh*t naman)
Hermoine: nye...
Nathan: tuwing ddaan ako jan sa area mo
Hermoine: hirap sumingit sa sked mo...
Nathan: a cofi or lunch wud do
ganito sked ko hangang mag give up ako sa isa kong work
Hermoine: sat or sun d ka pwede?
Nathan: nasa first office ako
hehe!
Hermoine: no chance...
Nathan: wikends sa telus ako
kya chance ko lang e pagdumaan ako jan sa area mo
Hermoine: d naman ata pwedeng la kang off noh...
Nathan: pagnag off ako mttulog lng ako
d ko na nman iggmik cguro yun.. suicide yun! haha!
Hermoine: spend it with me...
kahit one tym lng... (nagmamakaawa na ko... huhuhu... )
Nathan: ok lang tlga sana..
il let u know kung kelan ko ggive up isa kong work
soon..

LOG OFF!!!!

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)