the saddest thing

I think the wedding is off.

WHY?

Because we don't have any money to pursue it.
we don't have any money to have even a simple wedding.

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2 Christmases Left For Me

I just realized

that I only have
2 more Christmases left
to celebrate
with my family as a
single lady.

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Married

Guess what?!

Soon I'll Say I Do

It's not that complicated because it's been 8 yrs that Luke and I have been steady. So finally I'll walk down the alter with him waiting for me and we'll both say "I DO"

I'm excited.


(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

A Summer Worth Waiting

Real Date: June 7, 2008 (Saturday)
Mood: Jolly with a little bit of jealousy
Music: Go On Girl by Ne-Yo

Finally we saw each other, me & nate, i mean. But unfortunately he has a companion. Here's how it goes...

Text Message

Nate: hi hermoine. jake told me your at the beach? Nice.

Hermoine: Yep. We'll extend one more day. I'll go home tomorrow.

Nate: Nice. Let's have dinner. (Wow.. Yey.. :D)

Hermoine: When?
Wait is that message for me or you sent it wrong?!

Nate: Tonight.

Hermoine: Don't tell me your here too.

Nate: Yup. Who you with?

Hermoine: The Bf and some friends. Your with Lindsay aren't you?!

Nate: Secret.

Hermoine: Such a girl.
Okay i'll text you where to meet.

Nate: Ok.

END

So there we met at the beach front. I was surprised cause he said hi to Luke first. Luke have been rude in front of Nate's "NEW GF LINDSAY". He is just so sarcastic when he answers Nate's questions. Well we just took some pictures & converse for awhile because I don't want to interupt their night out at the beach, just the two of them. GRRRRRRRR..... Nothing more to add here.

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1,2,3,4, High-5

Well guess what?! Nate came by to visit. You know what happened. Before, when he doesn’t have a girlfriend he used to greet me with a hug and a kiss but now when he saw me he wants me to do a “high-5”… a high-5. That is so funny I was shocked but what can I do?! So I did what he wanted to do, I gave him a “high-5” a freakishly thing to do with your girl friend. I just can’t believe what happened.

I just want to share I don’t like Nate with a girlfriend. I mean attitude wise.
He is so paranoid & freaky. I just don’t like him.
But you know what. He is so YUMMY… uhuh uhuh… (wink wink)

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Here We Go again

Date: April 8, 2008 (Tuesday)
Mood: Happy
Music: Go On Girl by Ne-Yo

Don't judge okay... I just miss my friend...

Hermoine: nate nood tyo shutter...ayaw ako samahan ni Luke e...

Nathan: hmm.. shutter?! ano un?!

Hermoine: scary un e...

Nathan: bka naman nanunutok k pag naggulat k ha!

Hermoine: hindi noh... nangangagat lng...
Nathan: yare ako jan!
Hermoine: hahaha...
Nathan: hahaha ok lng sakin! showing na b?
Hermoine: yup...

Nathan: sh*t so this wk na pala un!?

Hermoine: yup...

Nathan: plano plano k ngpaalam ka na b?! bka tyo mashutter jan ng wla sa oras ha!

Hermoine: madaling magpaalam... ikaw ang mahirap kausap e...

Nathan: sbagay.. haha! ayusin ko sked ko tpos mgppaalam din ako ha

Hermoine: yari tyo jan... baka ako ang mashutter ni Lindsay.. (his girlfriend... awwwww... :( )

Nathan: kelan mo b blak if ever?

Hermoine: friday? ewan ko... kahit kailan...

Nathan: cge next year ha! shutter 2! (cge mag produce ka ng sarili mong film)

Hermoine: naman...

Nathan: d kc sumagot na matino e

Hermoine: bukas... o ano pwede ka? syempre hindi dba?!

Nathan: pede! (waahhh... pahiya ako dun ha... hehehe... :D)

Hermoine: d nga?

Nathan: kaw pa! pede ko naman adjust sked ko 4 u ako lang naman mahina sayo e
Hermoine: ewan ko syo... wag mong baligtarin ang situation...

Nathan: haha! bsta libre mo game ako! haha! pede nga ko promise

Hermoine: ako pa manlibre ha...

Nathan: haha!

Hermoine: sama natin jake ok lng syo?

Nathan: bt natin ssma pa c jake?! gusto kitang masolo (HHHUUUWWWAAAAATTTTT?????? pero natuwa naman)

Hermoine: ok fine d na... (bumigay naman kagad... hehehe...) arte mo...

Nathan: tlga!

Hermoine: anong plano mo?

Nathan: cge tom!

Hermoine: wat tym?

Nathan: ikaw? nun time k mkkrating ng trinoma? sa hous lang ako manggaling e

Hermoine: mga 6:30

Nathan: pede rin

Hermoine: so 6:30 na nga trinoma?

Nathan: yup2 nagpaalam kana b?

Hermoine: oo nga... e ikaw?

Nathan: d pa.. hehe!

Hermoine: labo to...

Nathan: mgppaalam ako ng matino.. pasok yan.. mgppaalam na lang ako tom..

Hermoine: hay naku... so sa june alis ni Lindsay... dun tyo makakaalis noh?!

Nathan: exag k naman pde yan..

haayyyy naku... sana matuloy

i'll keep u guys posted...

there's nothing wrong going out with your friend... :D

LOG OFF

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Another one of those dreams

Date: Feb. 2, 2008 (Saturday)
Mood: Tipsy

The Dream

I had a dream about Luke. We were on a car with some friends. Then I took his phone and started looking at his messages. I saw a sweet message from a girl so I started freaking out. Then I found out it’s another fling of his. I went down the car and ran. Then I woke up.

I don’t want this to happen again. I told him a little bit about my dream not all though. Then I told him if it happened again for the third time I swear I will not be solving our issue anymore. I’m done. I’m not going to be the one always running after him every fling he have and act like nothing happened. Not for the third time.

Fool me once, shame on you

Fool me twice shame on me

Fool me three times, I’m stupid

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Trust

Real Date: April 10, 2005 (Sunday)

When I heard his story I don’t know what will my reaction be. My parents know already about our (Me & Luke) situation(that we broke up). I was touch really because I didn’t know that my parents trust us that much and that Luke is that open with my parents.

My Parents wants us to fix our issue because they trust Luke so much especially my mom. That even though I’m out all day and night as long as I’m with Luke it’s okay with her.

I really don’t know what to feel and how to react. My eyes are teary I don’t know why. But on the contrary the feeling is good because the trust my parents have between Luke and me.


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Sa Kanya

Real Date: April 18, 2005 (Monday)
Mood: Sober
Music: We belong together (Mariah Carey)


I can’t believe it. Even Mouth knows about Luke and Rachel. What the hell? What is happening around me? I just found out that Luke is using Mouth’s house as a hidding place for him and Rachel. To make matters worst Mouth asked me to join them later at Luke’s house to drink. Well, I said yes.

I didn’t ask anyone among our circle of friends to pick me up. So here I am standing outside Luke’s house waiting for a friend to accompany me inside because I don’t want to go in alone. Finally Mouth and Skills arrived, and then Luke went out. He said hi and he looked at me, or maybe what I’m wearing. Huh!!!! Good thing I lose weight before this happen. What I’m wearing?! A tight hipster and a plain white v-neck shirt. Talk about cleavage. I sat down at the sofa and pretend to text someone but all I’m doing is reading my old messages. Shots and shots and shots later. I went out for a while to smoke and relax because I can’t act and think straight with that Rachel girl in front of me. Luke followed me outside, and he said I look good. Huh!!!! You know what, I kiss him. I don’t know why. Reflex maybe. He kisses me back so no problem there.

We went back in. Rachel is looking at us. So fun. I sat back to my place and shockingly Luke sat beside me. My phone beeps, I read the message and it’s from him.

Luke: I love you and I miss you.
Me: Me too.
Luke: This is hard.
Me: No! This hurts.
Luke: I’m Sorry. :(
Me: It’s partly my fault too, I guess. I’ll take you back. I promise.
Luke: Really?! :)
Me: Yes.

I went home early because I have an early class. Luke drove me home. On our way to my house the air is dead silence. Finally we arrived. He even went down the car to accompany me to the door. Then he leaned forward and kiss me goodnight. A longer one.

My message to Rachel: I know you know the song “Sa kanya” Luke told you that song. Try to hear it and analyze the song properly because that’s our song.

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It HURTS! It really does!

Real Date: April 17, 2005 (Sunday)
Mood: Sober

Music: Constantly (MYMP)

Luke asked me out, so I said okay. We had dinner and coffee, I think. I don’t usually look at his phone, but there’s a sudden feeling of borrowing it and browsing. At first I was playing a game on his phone. Then I started looking at his inbox, usual quotes of the day and some of my messages. Then I had this urge to look at his outbox, which I don’t know why because Luke doesn’t really save his sent messages. But there it was, one sent message from him. I opened it, I know it was bad but I saw it already so might as well read it right or else I’ll die out of curiosity, he send a message to a girl named Rachel the message goes:

“ Bie I’m going to Hermoine’s place. I’m sorry.”

So what’s up with that?! He’s seeing someone but then he still asks me out? And take note of this, this is not the first time he asked me out on a date. So this only means one thing. His two-timing either her or me. I don’t know the girl, thank GOD. I was shock though because we only cool off our relationship less than a month?! And this happened. It’s so fast. I can’t believe HIM or the girl. After that incident I didn’t talk to him for a while. It was dead silent.

I asked him to drive me home already because I’m really not in the mood anymore. He said sorry but it was too late. It’s been done. Faster than I expected. Well I was not expecting that to happen because I know we are just on a cool-off stage not a break stage. Sigh!!!!

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Message from HIM

Real Date: Jan. 10, 2006 (Tuesday)
Mood: Happy
Music: Hate that I Love you (Rihanna)








Nathan messaged me today.


“You got me with your messages earlier. You’re trying to hold my feelings back. I love you but unfortunately I can’t show that to you. You are committed so there’s nothing more I can be but just a FRIEND.”


My moment of SILENCE…


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