We might move it

Just like the title says we might move the wedding date to Oct. 16, 2010 to Sept. 10, 2011. Yes that's right. 2011 not Sept. 10, 2010 but 2011. WHY? Because still with the same reason. NO MONEY for everything. How can we move on to the next step in our relationship without money. I suggested to have a civil wedding but Luke doesn't want to. So there will be just 3 options:

Option 1: Loan... mangutang ng mangutang hanggang sa mabaon na kahit kasal na nagbabayad pa din ng utang.

Option 2: Move the date to later next year para makaipon muna kahit papano and wait for his formal proposal with e-ring.

Option 3: No wedding at all.

I can't cry anymore. I'm so tired of thinking and crying and doing everything. why did I put myself into this mess? Dapat talaga sa umpisa pa lang hindi na ko pumayag na magpakasal sa kanya lalao na wala siyang ipon, proposal at singsing... :(


(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

I didn't expect it

Date: March 19, 2010 (Friday)

Haaayyyyy.... Bakit ba ganito? Ako pa ngayon ang nagtuturo sa kanya kung anong maganda at murang engagement ring. In short NAGPAPARAMDAM ako na gusto ko ng singsing. Kasi naman sino ba namang lalaking may mahal na magpropopose sa gusto niyang pakasalan ng walang engagement ring? :( Akala ko talaga bibilin na niya yung singsing para sakin. Akala ko sosorpresahin niya ako nung nagpunta kami sa baguio ng tatlong araw... :( Ang sakit ang lungkot. Dapat talaga hindi ako pumayag nung nag propose siya sa akin ng walang singsing. :(

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

tell me how

so tell me
how can we pull this off
when we don't have a dime to spend
for this special day?
we can't pay with tears, smile, or by pleading.
i don't want to lose hope
but what else can i do?
i just need to pray harder
and hope for the best
need to think positive
and wish for the rest.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

Again with the expectations

Date: Feb. 13, 12010
Mood: Mixed emotions
Music: Maybe this Time by Glee Cast


Valentines has come and gone. I am not expecting anything from him. I just wanted one thing only. The ring that started it all... I know he can't still afford it, but I am not asking for too much I just want a simple one but still it will be a symbol that he really asked my hand in marriage.

I keep on bringing it up to my friends but still stayed firm that I am not expecting anything this valentine's day. Then a friend said to me 2 days before vday.

"Just wait maybe it will come sooner or later."

So I thought maybe my friend is right maybe Luke is planning on something this vday and will give me the best gift a girl could ever wanted.

Come vday I was too busy preparing a candle light dinner for a friend and his date. I keep on thingking that maybe it will be really for me and Luke. But then I thought Luke will never use purple for my special evening. So erase the thought.

When the dinner was about to start he kept on asking if i will still go back to the room? Maybe just maybe he hid it there.

All those expectations and high hopes that my friend has given me vanished when the clock strikes at 1 am. it is officially Valentine's Day. When Luke called me to go to the room there is his surprise for me:

A chocolate filled bed that says I love you.
A long stem rose
A slide show of almost all of our pictures.
And a snowglobe.

But no Ring... :(

I should have stayed firm. I shouldn't have expected. I know him too well but I let my guard down. Now I got depressed and disappointed.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

google it

I did a wrong thing by googling my name and there I saw my name on the 2006 nursing board exam passers. Of course I got depressed because i was there already ready to take action and everything. Ready to be a full pledge NURSE. But unfortunately I was one of the unlucky passers got included in a nightmare, LEAKAGE.

Well I wont tell the long story again. I just want to share this awful experience. That's it.

I just know there will be something good why this nightmare happened to me... GOOD KARMA!!!!

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Valentine's

Valentine's is near

I only wish for one simple gift

a Dozen Red Roses

nothing more...

I WISH I WISH I WISH!!!!!

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

so and so

i thought everything might change a little this year

i thought wrong

nothing will ever gonna change

i'm the only one who will change in this family


A NEW YEAR BUT NOT "A NEW YOU"

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

I Love

The most beautiful engagement ring I would ever want to have. A heart shaped genuine blue topaz stone radiates from the center of a stylish bali beaded border in this beautiful ring.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Here We Go again

Date: April 8, 2008 (Tuesday)
Mood: Happy
Music: Go On Girl by Ne-Yo

Don't judge okay... I just miss my friend...

Hermoine: nate nood tyo shutter...ayaw ako samahan ni Luke e...

Nathan: hmm.. shutter?! ano un?!

Hermoine: scary un e...

Nathan: bka naman nanunutok k pag naggulat k ha!

Hermoine: hindi noh... nangangagat lng...
Nathan: yare ako jan!
Hermoine: hahaha...
Nathan: hahaha ok lng sakin! showing na b?
Hermoine: yup...

Nathan: sh*t so this wk na pala un!?

Hermoine: yup...

Nathan: plano plano k ngpaalam ka na b?! bka tyo mashutter jan ng wla sa oras ha!

Hermoine: madaling magpaalam... ikaw ang mahirap kausap e...

Nathan: sbagay.. haha! ayusin ko sked ko tpos mgppaalam din ako ha

Hermoine: yari tyo jan... baka ako ang mashutter ni Lindsay.. (his girlfriend... awwwww... :( )

Nathan: kelan mo b blak if ever?

Hermoine: friday? ewan ko... kahit kailan...

Nathan: cge next year ha! shutter 2! (cge mag produce ka ng sarili mong film)

Hermoine: naman...

Nathan: d kc sumagot na matino e

Hermoine: bukas... o ano pwede ka? syempre hindi dba?!

Nathan: pede! (waahhh... pahiya ako dun ha... hehehe... :D)

Hermoine: d nga?

Nathan: kaw pa! pede ko naman adjust sked ko 4 u ako lang naman mahina sayo e
Hermoine: ewan ko syo... wag mong baligtarin ang situation...

Nathan: haha! bsta libre mo game ako! haha! pede nga ko promise

Hermoine: ako pa manlibre ha...

Nathan: haha!

Hermoine: sama natin jake ok lng syo?

Nathan: bt natin ssma pa c jake?! gusto kitang masolo (HHHUUUWWWAAAAATTTTT?????? pero natuwa naman)

Hermoine: ok fine d na... (bumigay naman kagad... hehehe...) arte mo...

Nathan: tlga!

Hermoine: anong plano mo?

Nathan: cge tom!

Hermoine: wat tym?

Nathan: ikaw? nun time k mkkrating ng trinoma? sa hous lang ako manggaling e

Hermoine: mga 6:30

Nathan: pede rin

Hermoine: so 6:30 na nga trinoma?

Nathan: yup2 nagpaalam kana b?

Hermoine: oo nga... e ikaw?

Nathan: d pa.. hehe!

Hermoine: labo to...

Nathan: mgppaalam ako ng matino.. pasok yan.. mgppaalam na lang ako tom..

Hermoine: hay naku... so sa june alis ni Lindsay... dun tyo makakaalis noh?!

Nathan: exag k naman pde yan..

haayyyy naku... sana matuloy

i'll keep u guys posted...

there's nothing wrong going out with your friend... :D

LOG OFF

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Another one of those IM's

Date: Feb. 26, 2008 (Tuesday)

Mood: Excited

Music: Almost

Just read through it… It’s just the sweetest first IM’s…

Nathan: aba?! galing ha!
hehe!
ka im ko rin jake ngyon e
tpos bnuksan ko pa frendster n mutliply nya
Hermoine: conference kmi nila jake & jimmy
bkit?
Nathan: ahh..
gusto ko mkita account mo
namimis ko na "IT GURL" e (aaawwwwww... sweetness)
Hermoine:hehehe...
tignan mo...
ok lng naman sakin e...
Nathan:hehe!
oo nga pero wala naman account e
hahaha!
Hermoine: wala?

This is it!!!!!

Nathan: actually gusto ko mamit in person c "IT GURL"
Hermoine: tlaga bkit?
Nathan: wala lang..
mis ko na sya..
Hermoine: ahh...
cge pagnakita ko sya sabhin ko miss mo na sya...
Nathan: cge b! suplada na kc ngyon un e..
Hermoine:tlaga?!
ang sab nya sakin kaw daw ang suplado e...
Nathan: oo naman! tagal na!
parang d naman nya ko kilala
Hermoine: parang d nga ata e... (arte arte)
Nathan: asus!

Random IM's

Hermoine: Nathan: actually gusto ko mamit in person c"ITGURL"... arte mo Nate ha?!
Nathan: ako pa ngyon nagiinarte!?
kaw ayaw mkipagkita e
Hermoine: HUUUWWAAAATTTTTT???????
ako?
ayaw makipagkita?
Nathan: sabe ko jan ako lage dmadaan ako sa area mo e
kelangan b muna magfile nag approval k Luke?
Hermoine: cra...
e bkit naman kac makikipagkita ka sakin dto pa sa office...
Nathan: bkit naman hinde?!
Hermoine: ilang beses na kitang niyaya laging ayaw...
Nate short hair na ko ulit...
Nathan: tlga?! how short?!
Hermoine: tignan mo sa friendster...
Nathan: short hair na b un sa pic mo sa im?
Hermoine: yup...
Nathan: hmm.. nkita ko na nga knina pero i didn't mind kala ko kc natakpan lang or sumtin pero bgay naman sayo (hindi nya napansin pero sabi nya bagay sakin noh?!)
Hermoine: lumaki muhka ko...
Nathan: d ko napansin kc close up pic mo e
Hermoine: hihi...

I don't like this part... :(

Hermoine: pag ako nagyayang umalis makikipagkita ka ba?!
Nathan: ok lang bsta d macconflict sa sked ko
Hermoine: tuwing kailan ka ba pwede?
Nathan: 7days a week nako pmpasok lam mo naman un (sh*t naman)
Hermoine: nye...
Nathan: tuwing ddaan ako jan sa area mo
Hermoine: hirap sumingit sa sked mo...
Nathan: a cofi or lunch wud do
ganito sked ko hangang mag give up ako sa isa kong work
Hermoine: sat or sun d ka pwede?
Nathan: nasa first office ako
hehe!
Hermoine: no chance...
Nathan: wikends sa telus ako
kya chance ko lang e pagdumaan ako jan sa area mo
Hermoine: d naman ata pwedeng la kang off noh...
Nathan: pagnag off ako mttulog lng ako
d ko na nman iggmik cguro yun.. suicide yun! haha!
Hermoine: spend it with me...
kahit one tym lng... (nagmamakaawa na ko... huhuhu... )
Nathan: ok lang tlga sana..
il let u know kung kelan ko ggive up isa kong work
soon..

LOG OFF!!!!

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)