I didn't expect it

Date: March 19, 2010 (Friday)

Haaayyyyy.... Bakit ba ganito? Ako pa ngayon ang nagtuturo sa kanya kung anong maganda at murang engagement ring. In short NAGPAPARAMDAM ako na gusto ko ng singsing. Kasi naman sino ba namang lalaking may mahal na magpropopose sa gusto niyang pakasalan ng walang engagement ring? :( Akala ko talaga bibilin na niya yung singsing para sakin. Akala ko sosorpresahin niya ako nung nagpunta kami sa baguio ng tatlong araw... :( Ang sakit ang lungkot. Dapat talaga hindi ako pumayag nung nag propose siya sa akin ng walang singsing. :(

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

Again with the expectations

Date: Feb. 13, 12010
Mood: Mixed emotions
Music: Maybe this Time by Glee Cast


Valentines has come and gone. I am not expecting anything from him. I just wanted one thing only. The ring that started it all... I know he can't still afford it, but I am not asking for too much I just want a simple one but still it will be a symbol that he really asked my hand in marriage.

I keep on bringing it up to my friends but still stayed firm that I am not expecting anything this valentine's day. Then a friend said to me 2 days before vday.

"Just wait maybe it will come sooner or later."

So I thought maybe my friend is right maybe Luke is planning on something this vday and will give me the best gift a girl could ever wanted.

Come vday I was too busy preparing a candle light dinner for a friend and his date. I keep on thingking that maybe it will be really for me and Luke. But then I thought Luke will never use purple for my special evening. So erase the thought.

When the dinner was about to start he kept on asking if i will still go back to the room? Maybe just maybe he hid it there.

All those expectations and high hopes that my friend has given me vanished when the clock strikes at 1 am. it is officially Valentine's Day. When Luke called me to go to the room there is his surprise for me:

A chocolate filled bed that says I love you.
A long stem rose
A slide show of almost all of our pictures.
And a snowglobe.

But no Ring... :(

I should have stayed firm. I shouldn't have expected. I know him too well but I let my guard down. Now I got depressed and disappointed.

(^_^) ~*~me~*~ (^_^)

desperate

I just heard myself talk and I sounded so "desperate"...

I didn't even see it coming. I thought everything is good. I keep on planning for our future and I haven't even notice that "he" haven't said anything at all. Meaning what?

He doesn't want to have a future with me?

I am such a dummy I'm so ashamed of myself, I was the one who proposed, I was the one who's looking for a house, I was the one who keeps registering for wedding expo, I was the one who decided to have a civil wedding this year.

I'm so stupid
Pathetic
Dumb
DESPERATE

I'm so sorry for this. I'm so sorry for that. I'm so sorry for being so desperate. I'm sorry.

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

Missing You Dearly

Is it worth missing a friend

even if you know

that he will not

miss you

the way you

miss him?

(^_^)~*~me~*~(^_^)

The B*tch & Ms Prym

It all started 2 yrs ago when she came into our lives...

I have a new story to add in this blog it’s about my brother’s b*tch let’s just call her Nikki. What can I say about her is that she’s a golddigger. Hell right she is. Before I continue my undying hatred for her I’ll tell you a little story about her ok. Here goes.

When my brother introduced her to us, of course at first she’s shy, she just stayed at our house for a couple of minutes then they left. The next time we saw her she’s already pregnant and of course my brother is the one responsible for it. I told my mom already that for sure sooner or later my mom will be paying a lot on hospital bills and so it happened. Nine months later she gave birth to my pamangkin.

The reason why I hated her so much…

It’s because I caught her with some guy on the mall & when I told that to my brother he didn’t believe me. He kept on giving excuses about the guy. That he’s that b*tch’s friend or something like that. Well screw him. I know what I saw and I know which to believe.

Till the next incident…

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Well why would it be?

Date: April 9, 2008 (Wednesday)
Mood: Frustrated
Music: No Air by Jordin Sparks & Chris Brown


Well guys it didn’t happen. Of course it wouldn’t. Who am I kidding?
Well I’m a little bit disappointed that our movie night didn't come alive because I am really looking forward to it. I haven’t seen Nate for months. Well here’s what happened…

Text Message

11 am
Hermoine: Nate what’s the plan?

12nn… 1pm…. 2pm…. My God the Interval

3 pm
Nate: Is it still showing on Saturday? Coz Jake wants to meet up on sat.
Hermoine: I don’t know.
What’s new Nate?! I knew this will happen.

4pm… 5 pm… Still with the Interval

5:30 pm
Nate: Sorry Hermoine. I promise on Saturday. If your free.
Hermoine: I don’t know Nate. I don’t want to be rejected no more.

DONE…

(*_*)~*~me~*~(*_*)

Another one of those dreams

Date: Feb. 2, 2008 (Saturday)
Mood: Tipsy

The Dream

I had a dream about Luke. We were on a car with some friends. Then I took his phone and started looking at his messages. I saw a sweet message from a girl so I started freaking out. Then I found out it’s another fling of his. I went down the car and ran. Then I woke up.

I don’t want this to happen again. I told him a little bit about my dream not all though. Then I told him if it happened again for the third time I swear I will not be solving our issue anymore. I’m done. I’m not going to be the one always running after him every fling he have and act like nothing happened. Not for the third time.

Fool me once, shame on you

Fool me twice shame on me

Fool me three times, I’m stupid

(*_*)~*~*~me~*~*~(*_*)